growing up, realizing, and moving on...

"It happens to everyone as they grow up. 

You find out who you are and what you want, 

and then you realize that people you've known forever 

don't see things the way you do. 

So you keep the wonderful memories, 

but find yourself moving on." 

-Nicholas Sparks 

I think when you finally understand this quote inside and out, 

you've truly grown up and finally found your own inner identity. 

I don't believe love changes. People do. Circumstance do.

We all take different roads, make different choices, experience different pains, bare scars like finger prints;

some of us will experience life in ways no one else on this earth ever will, making all of us unique.

All this molds us into the characters we become in our own storybook life.

And we all handle it very differently. 

Some of us decide to be the heros of our own stories. 

We decide to rise above the wars of life and claim victory over things uncontrollable.

Some of us play the victim. 

Some of us find the easy way out because we really are too weak to carry our own weight.

Some of us turn the pain inward and make ourselves villains. 

We get so stuck in believing "life isn't fair",

that eventually the hate and insecurities we never let go rule our minds and hearts. 

Some of us decide to live in the mirrors of free will. 

We decide to not be affected by the ups and downs of life, 

because maybe they once affected us so much, 
we realized we won't let anything else rule us, other than ourselves.

Some of us might not ever experience extreme trials, 
so we are simply the onlookers, and the crutches to the weary.

We all like to pretend we are the heros, the ones who overcome,
 but truthfully, what are you in your storybook?

Some of these characters once saw eye to eye, but do not anymore.

Some once lived close to identical lives, but than decided to take different roads.

Some merge together beautifully to find some of the best lovers, friends, and strangers they've ever met.

I think finally understanding we are all different and finally learning to truly let go, 

is the beauty of realizing life and true acceptance of it.

This doesn't mean you won't love them anymore, you will always love them.

But when realizing this takes place...

you've grown up.

  

The past couple years have shaken the inner most grounds in me. 

Without the separation of death, just the sole facts of life and beliefs,

I have been unfortunate enough to lose a best friend, a family member, and a lover.

I have also gained some beautiful, new relationships. 

I am now okay with letting people go. I have accepted the beauty of this and of moving on.

We all will never see eye to eye.

So if time separates that and if life's twists and turns cause a divide,

there is nothing we can do inside our power other than, let them go.

Let them go and let yourself rest in peace.

If they come back to you, and if life allows roads to merge back together again,

than so be it.

But until than, our inner happiness and sanity is #1.

I believe we have to accept the unfortunate 
and the things and people we will never understand...

it's the art of living on.

We all write our own story, we have the power to make it happy.

Above all of this, just know...

the future always has the ability to hold happiness, so move on, it's just waiting for you.

xoxo

jesus loves you and so i